The sole purpose of this website is awareness, awareness of the sleep you have been in for many centuries, to finally be awake and be free of suffering created by the mind. To experience bliss and the joy of living and accepting oneself fully as you are is the aim. This site will guide you on how to be original and free of all insecurities and masks that you have been using in front of other people for many years. The content that will be posted on this page will be related to life and will question and explain why the mind is so judgemental, angry, lustful, greedy, possessive, needy and jealous. It will also make one more aware of how they avoid their mind on a day-to-day basis and offer solutions of how to face the mind using meditation techniques that will make the mind more and more silent, and more aware of the truth. However be aware, this site will question all beliefs, values, and ideologies you have been bought up with. To live life blissfully is to follow your heart more than your mind and learn to live on your own terms rather than on others ideas, values and beliefs.
“Know yourself” – Quilon of Sparta
My Name is Himalay, I am a 22-year-old student of life. I have a degree in Psychology and have been practicing spirituality and meditation for several years now. I was free of the inner voice around two years ago, but my mind was still thinking day in day out, about the past and the future, I was still attached to this world and its ways until I became enlightened 8 months ago. No-mind was frequent more and more before I got enlightened. What enlightenment is, is what I will discuss in future blogs.
Before that my life had been of mainly suffering and in a constant phase of being hurt because of my own attitude and thoughts towards life, which included a lot of insecurities about how I look and how others would perceive me. The constant nagging of the inner voice in my head that judged everything I do further made me more indecisive and easily influenced by others, on their perception of me and what they think I should and shouldn’t do. So it became a cycle of living up to someone’s expectation by struggling to ‘improve’ and gain approval, these actions satisfied my own ego too, as I proved them wrong every time. But was it worth it really, the pain the suffering?
I had been through bullying for 15 years of my life, constantly being picked on broke my confidence in myself. Being fat and being quiet mostly all the time further enhanced my belief that I am weak and lacked the courage to stand up for myself. Life hasn’t been as blissful as it is now. I realized that the main cause of my suffering was because I went against myself to meet expectations of others. I constantly looked for ways I could stand out in society and in front of people who put me down all the time, deciding to lose weight was one of the things that helped me feel a bit better, however, insecurities still existed. I persisted more and more to get an ultimate physique. Being Lacto-Vegetarian didn’t stop me, comments were thrown around, meat-eaters assumed that you cannot get anywhere being vegetarian, well I moved past the limiting beliefs. I was strong physically but that wasn’t enough for me, I questioned why I was still insecure, why couldn’t I share my views and opinions. So I decided that I had to understand the roots of my own past by myself, of where everything actually started. I had to open everything up I had suppressed and repressed. I realized that suffering started for me when I started naming and labeling situations in my head as a bad situation. The mind makes little things very big, and it can’t see the situation for as it is.
Furthermore, I was bought up in a religious family, to follow morning prayer and evening prayer was a routine then. I used to pray and blindly follow rules of scriptures and pray for a better life, as you do. But I got no response, and my expectations were high, so suffering was bound to be there, when I look back I can say everything that ever happened to me was because of my own doing and not of others. As negative situations became more frequent I became more unconscious and started believing there is no god. Then the search began, I started seeking for myself. I started reading, I realised that the world doesn’t have to change, I do, and that journey started when I was 18, and now here I am free of mind, free of beliefs imposed by society, living life on my own terms and following my own heart to be, to explore, to be creative and see the world as ever new, without judgements of the past constantly interfering and the feelings of bliss that happen so frequently than ever before.
I wish this journey of life and posts I publish provides you with insight, that you can be free also, free of mind, suffering and negative bondage. I hope this blog gives you the courage to be you. To listen to your heart rather than your mind, to step up, to be satisfied with life and explore the unknown. The journey of facing oneself is very painful, but the result at the end is beyond minds imagination. Welcome to my site. Enjoy the journey, I wish you the very best, be open-minded and this will work wonders. Thank you.
“In a soul completely free of thoughts and emotions, not even tigers find a place to sink their claws”- Waka (Japanese poetry) of the fencing school Shinkage-ryu (Japan, medieval age)